"Something changed inside me, broke wide open, all spilled out"
https://youtu.be/oaRPGqm7oVE
That's the first line from the song I think of from this prompt of "it spilled out," a song by Christian singer-songwriter Sara Groves. It was the finale to the movie The Ultimate Gift from 2006. The song and the movie affected me in a way something like the song says. It's about an event that prompts our old habits to spill out and our walls to fall, like what happened to the young character in the movie after going on his hero's journey that took him beyond his spoiled, wealthy but unhappy life and through stiff challenges that changed him and opened up his compassion.
Personally I had just discovered the meaning of the tarot cards as relating such a spiritual journey, with help from Robert Place and his book "The Tarot" (2005), and this movie took its main character through the same journey almost as if it were based on the cards. I was so moved that I developed a lecture and slide show which I presented to friends at my church and other places, even Mike and Catherine Pelizzari's house.
Sara mentioned that besides the movie plot, there was a personal experience behind the song. She had been so moved by the Katrina disaster the year before that her compassion was opened and she travelled south to New Orleans to help the victims.
She has another song in which she sings:
"Every heart has so much history
It's my favorite place to start
Sit down a while and share your narrative with me
I'm not afraid of who you are
I'm all here, and you're all there
Some of this is unique, and some of it we share
Add it up and start from there
Well, it's all right here"
It sounds like some of our groups. And I wonder about moments in my life history when it all spilled out and something changed. Sometimes I felt more compassion; other times loss and my hopes for better changes were dashed, so I had to summon my resilience. Like the events in America in recent days have done. Or like when I lost my girlfriend to another guy, and the moment I learned it. And other times of betrayal and unjust treatment I suffered. Another time happened soon after the incident that prompted Sara's song about her insides all spilled out. I had known about global warming since 1988 when the Mississippi River dried up. New Orleans is near that river's delta. Hurricane Katrina devastated the city in 2005 when it spilled over the levees, and it also prompted Al Gore to make his film An Inconvenient Truth (2006).
Melissa Etheridge won an Oscar for the movie's theme song, in which she said she needed to change, break up and wake up. The movie may have had some mistakes in the data, or so they say, and some of it is out of date. Some of his predictions were too dire, and yet most of the scientific models have been in fact too optimistic and conservative. And the movie did wake me up. I determined that I would do more about global warming than before-- to do something every day. And everywhere, its effects keep spilling out.